Stability

The word stability takes on many meanings, it's kind of like balance! In my life, stability is out the window without balance and if I tossed in contentment, then soon comes the realization that change is required.

We all have our own life story, challenges, priorities, schedules......, which can all be altered to a certain degree. For myself, the altering and prioritizing has not made a lot of difference. What it boils down to for me, is time, and even if there were 30 hours in a day, my next issue becomes rest.

The importance of rest for both the mind and body has become very apparent to me. Therefore, to reach contentment within my life, there has to be an alteration as to where I designate my time.

As I sat down for breakfast after running in the Rotary Run this morning, Mrs. Poultney began to speak about suicide and suicide prevention, and more particularly about her 17 year old son who committed suicide in 2004. She spoke of her passion to heal a hurting world and spoke of all who were listening, as survivors of "suicide". This statement really hit home with me because of its hidden truth, not because I'm at a mental state of self destruction....yet, but because of the stresses of this world, its fast pace, its instability and uncertainties. Mental illness impacts all of us and with stress being the number one killer of man kind, the correlation is obvious; I believe prevention is possible but requires awareness and action prior to the onset of some sort of irreversible state. I don't want to just be aware of the potential of being affected by severe mental illness, I want to do what my mind is telling me to do, right now.

Crap.....I just lost a huge portion of my write up! I guess I should have started in Word...

I wrote on how I recognized my limitations and life deficiencies, through challenges that I have put myself through. Challenges have a two fold benefit, first off, they allow you to push yourself beyond your limits and also allow you to recognize your limitations and of course open up windows on how to alter your process. Both are important, without my recognition and awareness of my limitations and life deficiencies, I wouldn't have become aware of the changes which I need to make.

Spreading myself too thin has been a mental struggle and has lead to interruptions in thought processing, focus and coherence, disrupted sleep patterns and unnecessary stress and aggravation. Seeing the onset of these self destructing signs has opened my eyes.

I can't seem to come up with a closing statement, other than it has been an awkward topic, knowing the changes that I'm going to make.


Darcy Regier, Silent River Kung Fu, UBBT, Stony Plain, Alberta.