I have come to
the realization that I have an anger management problem. I've only
realized it now because when I think of anger issues, I think of people
punching holes in walls, yelling at others, or other extreme
manifestations of anger, and that's not what I am experiencing. For me,
it's more subtle. I feel like I'm letting my anger creep in and
influence my behavior and decision making. Lately I've been making
decisions in haste, acting emotionally, and I am still having a lot of
trouble keeping my emotions in check while driving. I've been trying to
keep track of the circumstances when I'm at my worst and there are
usually three common themes.
First,
when I'm in a hurry to get somewhere, I tend to get angry because I
perceive people as being "in my way". Second, I have a feeling of not
being in control. I can't control the other drivers and get them out of
my way or make them drive faster. So when I combine the two, I have a
situation where I'm in a hurry and everyone is in my way and there is
nothing I can do about it. The last part of the equation is that, to me,
driving anywhere is a complete waste of time. I can't utilize that time
to do anything constructive. I've tried audiobooks and I have a hard
time comprehending what's being played because I'm focused on the road.
If there was a way to do something with that time (which is usually
about 90 min every day minimum), maybe it would help.
To
be honest, I don't know what the solution is. My current approach is to
just try to be aware of when I'm angry so that I can try to stop. I'm
thinking if I practice doing that, eventually it will become habit and
things will improve.
Cory Smid
http://kungfucory.blogspot.ca/
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