The last few
months have been tough for me. As I've found out, my shoulder injuries
were not themselves the problem, but a symptom of other underlying
issues. I'm not very good at explaining it but suffice it to say that I
have issues with my skeletal alignment and, over time, this has caused
several problems for me, including the stress on my shoulders,
tendonitis on my left side, and severe migraines, the latter of which
has severely affected my sleep to the point where there have been a few
instances where I didn't sleep for a few days straight and the only
relief I got was from drinking half a bottle of Nyquil and essentially
knocking myself out.
I've
had limited success with my physiotherapy but the limited part is
because my work schedule hadn't allowed me to go to physio even
semi-regularly and so I would start from scratch every time.
This
has changed now as my employer is allowing me to stay at home for
several weeks to get treated. To be honest, between my shoulder
injuries, tendonitis, insomnia, and migraines, I'm tired (no pun
intended) of thinking about all of this. I'm also tired of writing about
all of this and I'm sure everyone is tired of reading about it. I hate
to admit it, but when you never feel 100% physically, it weighs on your
self-esteem and motivation. Negativity creeps in. My attendance in class
has become even worse, not just from work but because I just didn't
want to attend, and my training has suffered too. There's also a bit of
guilt from perceiving myself as a bad teammate, which I posted about
earlier. My physiotherapist is quite confident that regular treatment
for several weeks combined with homework will take care of things. I'm
really hoping that's the case.
I
guess these are the kind of situations that build character in a
person. I was recently watching an episode of "Chopped" on the Food
Network and one of the contestants was very confident, stating that she
knew she would win because she had never failed at anything before. I
laughed when I heard that, knowing from personal experience that failure
is what makes a person stronger. This is something that I need to
remember. It doesn't matter if you get knocked down, as long as you get
back up again.
Cory Smid
http://kungfucory.blogspot.ca/
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