2x4s..and repeated blows to the head

Ever noticed how if the universe has something to teach you, it repeatedly hits you on the head with the concept until you cry uncle? I've had a few different books I've read, videos I've watched that have continued to nag at me that I'm not living the life I want; theres more I need to do and be. Its annoying to be sure; don't know how or when things will or can change. But theres hope too....maybe, just maybe, I'll figure out what on earth I have any gifts in, and most importantly, where they would be most beneficially used:) Heres hoping the universe has bread crumbs to lead me, not just 2x4s to hit me with.