The 3 R's

In my life right now the 3 R's stand for relaxation, reflection, and rejuvenation. Shows are tiring both mentally and physically and I find I need down time after I'm finished for the season. What worked, what didn't, what am I doing and where am I going are the questions that are floating around my mind these past few days in regards to life in general rather than just my glass art.

During the Lloydminster show I found out that a fellow co-worker from another department passed away suddenly in June from a heart attack. He was 50 and had plans to go back to Paris next summer. The gal telling me this news was saddened by it, of course, but also was full of anger and resentment towards the employer and was revealing to me that she is soooo outa there...... in 5 years. Blink, blink! In that moment my first silent question was "why not now" and my first feeling was that of gratitude that I took a leap of faith to defy all logic, to leave a routine (and paycheck) and to live my life now.

I often hear that I am so lucky that I can do my glass art, my Kung Fu and whatnot because I have a husband who supports me. Of course the literal translation is "your husband is a wallet therefore you don't have to worry about money". Now that's an assumption the size of the universe! However, I do have husband support and the wallet support is the least important of the support he gives me. Dennis believes in me and my potential and that is so important especially when I want to pull a lampshade over my head and hide from the world. There are times that it's his belief in me that keeps me going and sometimes the belief comes in the form of "how many more signs do you want for confirmation?? Get over yourself and get on with it already!" And I'm grateful for it all.

I finished my Weight Loss For Women Who Feel Too Much course and I really felt like I bombed it. I went in with the intention of melting away the body fat that was tagging along despite what I did. Well that's not what the outcome was. I wrote in my closing email that I had difficulty keeping on track and doing the exercises and as a result I didn't lose any weight, but I did break through resistance that I had in regards to the direction of my glass art. I got a return email response that said "WOOHOOO, The Universe works in such a powerful and perfect manner...you got EXACTLY what you needed out of this class...exactly! Clarity, purpose of vision and more. That is great stuff. Well, worth the class. And congratulations for being self-aware enough to KNOW that you got what you needed." I guess I didn't bomb it after all.

When I slow down I can take a good look at where I want to go in the future. What do I want to learn? What do I want to focus my training on? Is what I'm doing working and if not what shift can I make so it can? Of course there is the all-important question of what do I really want? What do I really want (and how would I train) if no one was watching me and if I didn't hold myself back? Hmmmmmm