For the past 10 years the Christmas season has had an undercurrent of angst and because of that I could not truly enjoy the season. The angst ranged from "I have to remember to teach the students this" to " I wonder how the students are going to be" to frantically cramming in knowledge so that I can teach a course I knew squat about, to being in tears over the upcoming 6 weeks of living hell of a schedule I was about to undergo. Basically I was anticipating and living in the future. Not really a cause for celebration, however this year is different.
I declined the offer to go back for the spring semester and for the first time in what seems like forever, I am feeling peace, joy, and serenity. In this moment I am living in the present. When I declined the offer I felt a release, maybe a final thread of stress, I don't know, but what I do know is that there is a certain calmness that wasn't there before.
Why did I decline the offer? Going back did not align with my life purpose to learn, to grow, and to create. I have chosen to go full forward with me, my Kung Fu, and with my glass art. There's a boatload of learning, growing, and creating to be done of which I am both thrilled and anxious. It's all good, no, let me rephrase that, it's all amazing.
I wish all of my Kung Fu family and their families a very Merry, Blessed, and prosperous holiday season that is filled with joy, fun, and, laughter. All the best in 2012!
Sherri Donohue
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