Uncensored Wanting

A statement that has been repeatedly coming up in my personal development books, courses, interviews, and what not has been to "focus on what you want." Focus on what you want instead of what you don't want. However the question that has kept cycling back to me is "what do I want?" Good question and not so easy of an answer.

During our drive back from our weekend camping trip Dennis and I decided to play a game that I invented (okay, I decided and he played along). The game was called "Uncensored Wanting" where we ask each other what we want and we would answer back with the freedom of a 6 year old with the new edition of the Sears Christmas Wish Book. Sounds like an easy game full of frivolity, well hold the frivolity and it wasn't so easy. I found myself playing the game "safe" and the censorship was rearing its head. Excuses such as "my studio isn't set up for something that big", "I really don't need that", "I can do with something smaller", "I should ask for this first", " I want this because of these reasons" and so on. Oh yes and the "be careful for what you wish for" kept chiming in as well. (Who invented that damned saying anyway??!!) I also found myself silently seeking approval for what I wanted.

What an eye-opener this game was for both of us! Talk about some blocks! How can I focus on what I when I either don't know what I want or I talk myself out of what I want? Yeesh! So now I have decided that I need practice in this game (as uncomfy as it is) and to practice frequently either by saying out loud what I want or by writing a list. Also, make some outrageous requests just to flex and stretch that asking "muscle".

So Sherri, what do you want? The only rule of the game is that you cannot censor your answers. Let's begin..... what do you want? P.S. Don't forget to breathe.

Sherri Donohue
Silent River Kung Fu, Stony Plain, Alberta