Family

A member of my family was in a car accident on Friday and it really got me thinking. Where are my priorities? Am I doing the things that I want to be doing (or in some cases, should be doing)? Am I spending enough time with the people that I care about? 

The answer to those questions aren't easy to face. It's hard for me to admit to myself that I'm living a life that is below my expectations for myself. It's easy to think big and have great ideas but all the plans in the world don't mean anything if you don't follow up and put them into action. While it's true that I'm a more productive person than I was a year ago, I can't improve fast enough. Time is our most precious resource and there's never enough of it. How do you fit everything you want or need to do into a day or a week or a year or a lifetime? Something has to give. 

That's where values come into play. I know that I haven't placed a high enough value on my family. I have a great relationship with my sisters and my brother but less so with my parents. I don't talk to them about kung fu or the I Ho Chuan. I don't tell them about the progress I've made or how my life has improved. They might ask me "How's the karate going?' and I say fine and change the subject. This is a conscious decision I've made based on my past experiences but maybe it's time I rethink things.

Anger and resentment act like poison and if you don't deal with them, they will affect you negatively forever. That's easy to say but the hard part is actually overcoming them. I need to do more thinking about this but I suppose the first step in solving a problem is identifying it in the first place.

Cory Smid
http://kungfucory.blogspot.ca/