Currently I am taking a course called "Weight Loss for Women Who Feel Too Much" by Colette Baron-Reid. The course is designed for those of us in the population who not only feel our energy/emotion/pains, but everyone else's as well. We are called clairsentients or empaths. It's enough when I feel my own stuff, but to add on others just complicates things a whole lot more. Is this mine? Yours? Whos? And am I reacting to me or someone elses stuff? Believe me, I just want what's mine, thanks.
It is very typical for women who fall into the clairsentient or empath category to experience either weight gain without reason or weight clinginess regardless of diet and exercise. Plus typical eating habits are impulsive and include the rich, sugar, and junk categories. One can say that this pattern falls into the emotional eating category, but it doesn't. Emotional eating is fueled by self emotion. These patterns are a result of feeling others emotions. And, of course, one can have both. However, this is where I differ: my eating habits are very healthy. So what's my vise if it's not eating? It's training/exercise and when I feel out of my own zone, I want to train: a lot. Here's the catch: I need to train for the right reasons, the healthy ones and not to escape the situation or emotion that I need to feel or deal with at the time. Of course exercise can be used as a release, but again, needs to be healthy. So do I avoid training? Not at all, however, I need to be aware of WHY I am training. In other words, train because I love it and not to escape.
The only diet plan in this course is to avoid white sugar and white flour. Everything is to be eaten on a plate (dish) and while sitting down. There is a breathing and prayer ritual to do prior to eating to get conscious about the food and the eating process. I have found that I am eating slower and not as much when I implement the ritual. Plus I am more grateful for what I am going to chow down. I have noticed that my body does not want sugar (as in refined). Too much white death and I feel like I have a hangover. Blah!! Dennis's sister picked apples from her tree to make a pie for supper and everyone was jumping up and down about the pie. I was jumping up and down about the apples: fresh, organic and pass on the pie, just give me the apples. I want fresh and unadulterated dammit!
During the horse show, people paraded past my booth with big plates of fries and gravy. And the aroma!! I was salivating like Pavlov's dog, I caved, and I too chowed down on a wondrous heaping plate of artery-clogging delight topped with gravy (of course!!) and ketchup. So how did I feel afterwards? Well much like I had a layer of wax lining my vessels and a layer of fat was just added on to my body. However the one thing I am clear on is that was a reaction to a smell and chemical trigger so I need to reset myself on that one.
How did my training go? At first good, then for escape, then I fell off the wagon and during the show with the long hours it was a no-go. Proudly, I must say, is that the morning after I got home the first thing I thought of (and did) after opening my eyes was doing my pushups and situps. Now I'm back on schedule. Yes I do have some resistance about some of my training, however, with the course I will be looking at that and resolving the issues. Again: mine or someone elses?
If I can say the major thing that I am learning from this course is self evaluation and awareness. Plus I have the tools to deal with the issue at hand. And it's on a whole new level for me. Is it easy? No and I do have resistance at times. However if I want to go forward, I have to take a step even if it's a small one.
Sherri Donohue
Silent River Kung Fu, Stony Plain, Alberta
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