Another public demo added to the list and a memory of different
emotions. Commitment. Getting together with the team at 5:00 in the morning and
having everyone show up and give it their best at all demo practices.
To create a demo in such a short time frame displayed a very solid and dedicated
team to what it is we are trying to accomplish. Excitement. When everybody is
getting ready to perform, there is such a high sense of energy and its just
plain cool to stand back and take in everyone doing their forms, adjusting and
tweeking, putting their own personality and flow to them. Inspiration. You can't
help but be inspired to do your best and that discipline is installed even when
you are home or training with each other. The expectations are high and everyone
is driven to succeed because as a team we are all counting on each other and
want to do well for the representation of our school and the expectations of our
teachers. Being nervous. No matter what mindset you use, this emotion is always
present before any public activity. No matter what perspective you try to fool
your brains with or how the butterflies in your stomach always amplify to elves
with jack hammers, this emotion will always be present and labouring if you let
it get the best of you. Although with a team and more and more public experience
you achieve it does get easier. Keep in mind, everyone around you is going
through the same feeling and they're pulling it off and so can you. Content. The
comfort of knowing that you can approach anyone on the team for advice or maybe
a relation to the trouble you are having or that little boost you need. The fact
that this is a team makes it rewarding when you can do the same for someone else
and being able to recognize that someone on the team may need your help but is
not very good at approaching or saying how they feel and taking the initiative
to approach. Pride. Witnessing all that took place and knowing you and your
team were a part of it. By contributing a piece of yourself and the standard of
the school. Looking around the room and feeling the energy of some truly
wonderful and awesome people, not to mention extremely lethal. Disappointment. I
really felt like I let the team down today. Everything went well with the
exception of my board breaks. Sorry guys. Regret. I should have practiced my
techniques more and took the little extra time to put the holders in
the exact place required. Although I didn't stop and continued through, in my
mind the word fail echoed through and the fact it was public left a sting.
Humility. I have become, to a point, comfortable with the back up of being able
to muscle through things. That failed me today and taught me a good lesson about
not always relying on your physical strength. My ability to quickly adapt and
just make it happen is great, but I think over confidence and ego impaired this
ability today. One of the main reasons I try not to carry an ego is because an
ego is fake and nobody respects an inflated ego and sooner or later it will
catch you and it will throw you flat on your face. So as I said, the fact this
reminder was public just reinforced my beliefs and was a great reminder to
humility. You can't always be perfect, there is no such thing. Wisdom. Learning
wisdom through mistakes is the true way to be successful and really be able to
figure out what went wrong and what process is required to repair and a break
down with an attention to detail in every step of your techniques to be solid
and stick with you. Happiness. All in all after I managed to think things
through, I couldn't stop smiling all day. Knowing what we did for those seniors
today was what really mattered. I still see the smiles on their faces and I'm
sure we really made an impact on their lives. I also can't stop smiling as I
recall all the smiles on my teamates faces. Good job guys, you all looked
awesome, and it was great to see team support from Sifu Bryant as well. Now
where is the damn ice!
Brian Chervenka
You were awesome Sihing..a rock! the board just got lucky today!
ReplyDeleteI am pround to stand beside you.