Where was I!?

Wednesday, 6 June 2012

 

Over the past 5 weeks or so my numbers and training have suffered a substantial hit. I wandered off the path and found myself trying to get back but all the trails were uphill and and it was very foggy. Only being able to get small amounts of repetitions and taking on too much leaves nothing but confusion and frustration. The sense of overwhelming was prevalent and left me asking myself, "what the heck was I thinking, taking this challenge on!" There is not enough time in a normal day to go over the curriculum to a sufficient level, nevermind 10,000 other things to complete and everything that goes along with everyday life. Then a thought blasted through and I remembered exactly why, to better my family, training, and my community. Since I have stopped trying to plan and set up specific times to train things have come back to where they should be. I am no longer feeling the stress or the guilt of not doing what I should because I am doing what I can whenever I can and the numbers are coming back and the great feeling of training is back full on. I haven't updated my Physout forever and my written journal was very, very vague. So as I started to write down numbers and thoughts the way it should be done, that feeling of where I was a month ago was starting to waken and my kung fu was coming back to me. Yes my training method may be alittle scattered to some and on some counts I have already failed this challenge but I am confident when I look back at the end of the year, my teammates and I will all be very proud of what we have all accomplished and perhaps learnt from what we haven't.
The month of June is going to be a catch up month for me for I have set a goal on what I am going to have completed and the challenge of a mindful diet thrown in and taken seriously should be enough for now.