First of all I want say that Pandemonium was an excellent experience from the parking lot festivities to the Kwoon events. A big thank you and congratulations to all involved. I must say that after spending 3 hours with my nose in a popcorn machine popping caramel corn, I don't to see caramel corn for a looooong time, at least until next year.
What has recently come up for me is that I was fighting a subconscious block about training. Nope didn't want to train. Pushups and situps were OK, but anything else was nope. Even with Pandemonium I was looking at the events with a bah! humbug! attitude. Because of the heel-digging resistance I had, this wasn't laziness, this was something that was rooted in my subconscious. Luckily I have the knowledge and tools to clear that block and once I did, I was ready to train and so I did at Pandemonium and felt fantastic for it.
The one thing that I am becoming more aware of is that the numbers aren't necessarily for me to accomplish, but to keep me on the path of moving forward at a consistent pace. I've lived at both extremes of the spectrum with first burnout, then relax in zen-land and now I'm seeking to find the middle ground where the wavelength oscillates around the center line vs tipping the extremes. The challenge for me right now is to move forward from zen-land knowing that burnout is a thing of the past because I now have tools, methods, and strategies in place to do a check-stop before it's too late. The key is to have both aspects of "work" and of zen-land as a regular part of my day/week/month/life. In other words, the key is to strive towards and maintain a center-line rhythm and that in itself is an art.
Sherri Donohue
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