Today was a good overall catch up day. I wrapped paperwork from yesterdays field day and coordinated contractors for the next couple days. Spoke with Alana on final details for the Death Race 'Hike'.....I feel life is a major mind battle, so to feel better about the race, in my mind I call it a hike, that sounds so much more pleasurable. I've written a list of a few things that I need to complete when I return home for a couple days....maybe longer, yet to determine. I feel a bit of a mind release.....feels good!
Couple other things on my mind, I need to write a blog entry and go for a run. I had a thought that came to my mind while watching "Matrix", it is "Natural Equilibrium". So, without a lot of direction to head with my post. I thought I'd go for a 5km run to the office, with some papers that I'd like to shred/ recycle. If that doesn't sound weird to the average person.....well its a double whammy. I tend to need purpose and reason when I do something, acting aimlessly....ahhh, that doesn't go well for me.
Anyway, I head out in 30C temperatures with the sun just'a baking the un-watered lawns....and me! I make it to the office and I forgot my security key to access the building, I called a co-worker and he won't be at the office for an hour. Hmmmm....all is good, there are a couple trees on the lawn in front of the building, I have my Blueberry....I can write a blog entry or have I just done that?
When I heard the phrase, "natural equilibrium" on "Matrix", I immediately associated that to balance. The word that skewed it from meaning the same to me, was "natural". What I mean is I've been trying to find and incorporate balance in my life for numerous years. If it should be natural for us living in the "Matrix", I mean on earth, am I battling with something that will take care of itself naturally?
There are many ways of seeing our future, such as fate, there is the law of attraction, there is spiritual belief and that there is a plan (we are not in control of our destiny but our immediate actions).
For the most part, looking back......
Time for a few push ups, I'm loosing my thought pattern or maybe I never had one.
I'm back. I guess what I'm trying to bring forward to myself is, am I'm okay? Every step I take is not premeditated, because there is continually something in my path to alter my way. Therefore, I naturally adapt, if I didn't I can't image where I'd end up at the end of the day. I've said before that change is growth, without challenge there is no growth, so without veering off too far. My challenges end up as growth and in some weird sort'a way are all naturally equalized. The reason I'm having such a battle is that I may be getting in the way of what will naturally take place and maybe the end plan will reveal itself when I'm ready to accept my destiny. Whoa.....this sounds like I watched a little too much of this movie. But really how far fetched can some of this stuff be! I need to believe or convince myself (my mind) to become extraordinary, so, if I was to let my mind follow this natural equilibrium path...what would be the result and where would that fall in relation to my current beliefs? It sounds like stress relief to me!
Sitting under this Shubert Chokecherry tree, hearing robins flutter around, writing a confusing blog entry was apparently where I was meant to be today. Well my co-worker should be here shortly, so I can shred, file and then make another mile!
Another day of reflection with hopes of finding reason! I know the answer is within.... one day it will truly reveal itself. Until then, I will try to allow my mind the freedom to naturally find its equilibrium........I wonder how many times daily, I hear the answers to my situations and turn from them.
Oops....it turned out to be a short story.
Darcy Regier
Really enjoyed this entry. I think you Rock!
ReplyDeleteSounds more like harmony or flow to me. :)
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