In the zone

I have been thinking about my performance at the tiger challenge.  I know the form Mu Long Kwoon, I practiced like crazy so I was at that place where I could run through the form without thinking about it.  Sure I’m nervous but I’ve been doing kungfu and dance performances in an effort to overcome that and it is better.   Now after messing up I am again dreading the next time I have to perform ... so I’ve gone back, not forward, after this experience. 

I didn’t give myself enough room, the form is big and although I started and was in the zone so to speak I quickly ran out of space and almost into the judges.  That wierded me out and I popped mentally out of that no thinking just doing frame of mind into an ‘oh my god now what’ moment.  For me when I ‘plink’ out of the zone like that I’m not aware of where I am in the sequence of the form.   Maybe that makes me weird but its how it works for me.  Parts of many of the longer forms have repeat movements and sequences so it can be scary when you lose your focus on the doing, just going with the flow, and realize you have no idea where in the sequence you are.   What maybe I should have done at that point is some move that would have allowed me a moment to regroup mentally and get back into that doing frame of mind.  What I did do however, is just grab a similar section of the form and go from there.  I never did get back into the ‘zone’ so feeling panicked, awkward and embarrassed that I just messed up and that it is probably reflected in the movement of the form I just sort of stumbled to the end. 

Its not realistic to expect the surroundings/conditions/preplanning to be perfect everytime.  Especially when performing at a lot of different locations like we do in the I Ho Chuan.  So how does a person prepare and stay in that zone even when things go awry?  How do you get that doing frame of mind to stand against outside distractions/influences?  Do I have poor focus?  Should a person prepare an emergency response / Hail Mary sequence to save the day?  Should I stay out of the doing not thinking zone when performing?  If that’s even possible? Am I just weird?  Insights would be appreciated.