Working on Mixed Emotions

Stay calm.....and try not to react with emotion. I find myself resorting to these words continually. I find it truly amazing how I can calm myself down in a conversation or tense situation by focusing on my breathing and resorting back to those words.

I resort back to those words also when dealing with personal struggles and when trying to determine right from wrong, or for better or for worse and in sickness and in health, well...........maybe no the later, it just seemed like the thing to write at that point.

Well, to continue with some personal issues that I've presented in previous postings. I asked for a work transfer, it was accepted and I'm now posted north of my family and about an hours travel closer than before. The bonus is a scheduled life, I know I wrote on this promise before and it never happened, but it is written on the calendar this time. Looks pretty positive and concrete to me! This transfer has allowed for me to sit back and begin reassessing my life. It sounds simple, but I'm going to take my time on this....

The results of my path will be dictated by my heart, my wife and my boys. The time when I'm at peace with myself, will present the way for my continued journey.

As for now, I will continue to be myself and who I've always been. Everyday, since I've started in my new area or work, I've been going to the onsite workout facility. My workouts have varied from 20 to 70 minutes, but I've made it a point of fitting them in. After night shift, when I have laundry to do or I need to be on site early, my work out time is lessoned, but I've made it a point of getting there and doing what I can. This in itself has given me an emotional lift.

I feel like I've set myself on a path, as narrow as it may seem right now, but one that I won't fall off of. This will be a tool that I use to reconnect with the I Ho Chuan, stay engaged and complete this test.

Darcy Regier

http://darcyregier.blogspot.ca