Back To The Drawing Board

Tonight was a bit disappointing for me. It was the first time I participated in class in quite a while. The warmup was pretty taxing for me as I hadn't been pushing myself that much while I was off. 

We worked on forms for the first part of class and I was really sure that I would be able to get my white stripe but unfortunately I wasn't quite good enough. I don't have anyone but myself to blame. Forms are one of the few things that I've practiced consistently while I was off but practicing at home doesn't do much if nobody corrects your form. I've had days where I did 8 or 10 reps and I feel like I wasted them all.

I know that there are people that get motivated by failure. You knock them down and they get up stronger. I'm not like that, although I wish I was. Failure doesn't motivate me; it make me want to quit. I recall a conversation that I had with Ms. Gibbons and she told me that one of the biggest reasons that she keeps coming around is the people. I think I feel the same way. I really enjoy everyone at SRKF and it always amazes me how helpful and encouraging everyone is.

I think I need to be able to train my brain to treat failure differently. Right now it always feels like the end of the world to me but I need to view it differently.

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