Expectations

So far it has been a very difficult year. Difficulty is good it helps us grow and mature into better stronger people but only if we work through it and get to the other side. I started the year with expectations, expectations for my self, expectations for this team, and expectations for the I Ho Chuan program. I have not yet lived up to my own expectations in fact I have let myself down. Not keeping up with the blogging and the push up requirements is a far cry away from what I expect from myself. The team does not seem to ever really come together to accomplish any common goals. It seems as if everyone is far to busy to put the common good ahead of their own personal needs. And so the team suffers due to everyones personal agendas getting in the way. The old saying of there is no I in team holds true. We seem to be finding the word "me" in team far too easily and so we never really come together properly. So the expectation I have of the team truly coming together and becoming the righteous and harmonious fist of our name sake is completely lost and it is all of our fault. So the team falls short of my expectations. The program falls short of my expectations as well, I see a huge potential in this program but it requires full commitment from its members and so far it has yet to obtain this. Their is a growing problem in the martial arts and my hope for this problem is the I Ho Chuan. If everything came together it would work great but so far this has not really happened. I know how to solve my own issues but not the team issues, Get back up and try again and again, and eventually I will accomplish what I set my mind to, but for the team I'm at a bit of a loss. If we can humble ourselves and work towards a common good then we can succeed but if we proceed with huge egos then we can not even accept where the issues are even if they are given to us on a silver platter. I want to start working towards a more open door policy. Where we can accept criticism from one another without the word but or an excuse entering into the conversation. Those two thing are an easy way out and we decide to not take the criticism seriously. I think we need to thicken our skins a little and be able to accept criticism without the dismissal we give afterwords. I am going to work towards being more critical with myself as well as my team mates. I want to be an inspirational and exceptional team member but as it stands I am just mediocre, this must change. The same goes for the team in my opinion.

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