Failing Forward

After my last post about failure, Sifu Csillag recommended a book to me called "Failing Forward". I'm about a third of the way through it now and one of the things the author, John C. Maxwell, talks about is the concept of taking action. He says that you can't wait until you feel good to take action; you have to first take action to feel good. 

This is one of the things that I'm struggling with right now. Most days I question why I'm trying to learn kung fu, let alone why I joined the I Ho Chuan. The sense of failure I have is much stronger than the feeling of accomplishment. I feel bad more often than I feel good. I accept that that is all on me. The more work I put in, the more progress I'll make and, in turn, the better I'll feel about myself. The funny things is that, before kung fu, I was content with my mediocrity. I wasn't happy all the time, but I was as happy then as I am now. 

I guess what I'm trying to say is that, at this point in time, I don't yet feel like kung fu has provided much value to me. That being said, I'm trying to push forward on blind faith. I'm going to continue to try to take action in hopes that I'll feel better.

Cory Smid
http://kungfucory.blogspot.ca/