When I joined the Snake team I felt
that I would have a bit of an advantage this go around as I was part of the
UUBT 8 team. I knew what this was mostly
about and I knew what my weaknesses were from last time around. However I seem to be experiencing those same
weaknesses all over again.
The
biggest question that I keep asking myself is “why”? Why am I not where I want to be right
now? Why am I not doing a better job of
tracking my daily numbers? Why haven’t I
even started some of my personal requirements?
Why?
When I
stop and reflect upon this question, the answer is that I have not dedicated myself
to this process fully. Mastery is
something that I truly want but am I prepared to put in the time and effort to
truly walk on this path? The answer that
I come up with is no. I have not
prepared myself mentally to walk on this path every day. So the next obvious question is why have I not
mentally prepared myself yet? I have
known for some time that I was going to be part of this team and its not like
it was a spur of the moment decision. I
have prior experience as being part of the UBBT 8 team, so why?
If I am going to be honest with
myself and my teammates I would have to say that the reason for this is that I
have not taken this opportunity with enough seriousness. I have treated the process so far as
something like “I will get to it when I get to it”. I have been lazy and not dedicated to the
process and the benefits that it will provide.
This attitude is something that I have known for a long time, it is a
flaw of my character and I have never admitted it publicly before. However, now I feel is the time to reach out and
admit one of my most flawed characteristics of my character. This will be the starting point of my
improvement not only as a martial artist but also as a human being. I
want this year to be the year that I not
only improve as martial artist but also as father, husband, friend. I
humbly ask my teammates to kick my but if you see that I am missing blog
entries. I agree with Master Brinker 100% that if you are not
blogging, you are not doing your other requirements.
Ian Repay
Student Of Silent River Kung Fu
Stony Plain, Alberta
Once that snow disappears, I am hitting you up as a running partner! Be prepared, countdown to Death Race!
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