in all honesty

First off I would like to apologize to all my team members for my lack of participation in the UBBT and for my extremely long absence from the school. I have lost sight and focus of what the UBBT is and what it means to me and my life. Instead of using it as a tool I turned I focused solely on the numbers and it turned more into a burden. With that as my frame of mind my motivation began to dwindle, but I had class at least to keep me engaged.

Then class ended and since I had not been keeping up with blogging both writing my own and reading others blogs I had very little to anchor me to kung fu. It was really easy to wrap myself up in my life and use it as an excuse of being to busy to train. Mostly this perspective came from me being aware that I was wasting time and opportunity. I knew that I was not going to be grading for black belt and that also fueled by distance from everything. I felt defeated but once again that is because I had approached the UBBT with the wrong attitude to start with. 


The past seven months have been hit or miss mostly misses for me but I can't dwell on my failures only reflect on why I failed, learn from that and move on. I have five more months in the UBBT but I have my whole life to either choose a path of mediocrity or  one of mastery.


Sihing Craig Janzen