Last weekend I sat in front of my laptop with full intentions of putting together an entry for my blog. I sat there hoping that my mind would release a topic of quality, a topic of revelation for growth or struggles of my last week. After the better part of half an hour, I typed and deleted...typed and deleted. The result of last week’s entry did not get any further than the start of a Microsoft Word doc without title.
I’ve been struggling with translating my journey into words and coming up with a product of value. I realize the value of blogging and its relevance to my success and the success of the team, but at the same time I feel a strong desire to make it relevant to my journey. I have encountered many struggles over the years, mostly with the time that my career has consumed from the dreams as aspirations of my personal life.
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I guess mastery for me has come forth within my career first and foremost. My personal life has been impacted in many ways by my choice in career mastery...this choice, has not been wrong, but comes with a lot of sacrifice. I dream of the day that my sacrifices will prove to have been worthy. Many times I think of how the weeks and months seem to be slipping by faster and faster. Soon the mastery of another facet of my life will circulate to the top of the list. Balance is just not possible when the scale is overloaded 75 to 25 right from the start.
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The part of my journey that is difficult to face or to even translate is ‘work’; I say this because at times I feel that my personal success has been very minimal with my career still running my life. To the working world, a job and dedication to it, is priority, it has to be at the top of the list, which does suck up a vast amount of personal building and family time. It has been and still is at the top of my time consumption list; I’m at work and physically away from home 65% of my life, even when I return home at least another 10% of my time is consumed with book keeping, invoice and receipt entries and vehicle maintenance. Remaining is 25% of my life, which is still far from being the time which is truthfully being allotted to self building. I have, for a couple years written about my journey through work and my career. Many things have altered within me and my journey while coupling my spiritual being and kung fu with my work environment. I’ve seen great success in my approach, and realize there is always room for continued improvement in order to reach or maintain mastery. But it has come to a point where my focus must turn to the other 25% of the scale.
Where do I go with this...? I have felt stressed and lost and my writing is evidence of, as you’ve just read. I look forward to this next exciting chapter in my life, whatever that may be! But for now...Mastery in my career and consciousness simply requires that I constantly produce results beyond the ordinary.
Darcy Regier
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