Jealousy

I've spent most of my life being jealous of those that are good at things that I would want to be good at. Or I'd try something and just quit right away because I felt I wasn't good enough. What a stupid thing to waste time on.  I was always to embarrassed to be in front of people learning something new.  Still am, but I'm forcing myself out of that habit.  I'm learning to be ok with sucking for now and one day slowly, there will be things I don't suck at.  I am no longer allowing fear of failing stop me from doing anything.  I'm living my life off my couch now and loving it. 

Thank you all for allowing me to attemp to organize our first demo.  I apologize for being so wishy washy and not getting it together better.  I'm intimidated working around so many great martial artists and I don't want to get 20 ninjas mad at me.