Tuesday, April 16, 2013

Warm Ups are Scary

Well, it happened, I lead my first warm up.  People came up to me and said I didn't seem nervous at all and I did a good job.  You people are so nice.  I don't know how that is possible.  I feel really hot like you do before you're about to faint and my knees shake.  If I come across as confident, it's a pretty good facade I've got going on.  Regardless, I hope that's the last one I have to do for awhile, I was not prepared for that.

We did forms yesterday, I'm not sure why but I get all flustered and confused when doing group forms class.  I do the wrong form half way through and start messing up very basic things.  It took me months, almost a year before I could do my first form in class, even though I had been doing it months by myself at home.  I don't know why I got this irrational fear of having anyone watch me do anything.  Oh well, I guess I'll just keep trying.

On another note, I'm really sad about the senseless violence over in Boston yesterday.  What drives people to do these things?  I can't even watch or read the news anymore, I don't even like alot of these abuse posts that come up on my facebook.  I can't handle it.  It makes it so difficult to be nice to people and not live in constant fear.  I understand why I have to do it though, everyone has a responsibility to make this world better.

Have a good week Snake Team!

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