This year is going so much better for me then it did all last year. I have finally started to get a set routine of push-ups/ situps each day. Plus being more aware of my time and doing 5 and 10 mintue segments of various parts of my training when and where I can fit it in, is working well for me. Even though the stress level at my jobsite is growing, and so to is my work load. I find I'm not stressing out like I used to in the past. I still hate having to lay a good worker off just due to the fact we are short of work. But I no longer allow the negative feelings that creates, dominate my thoughts. Being in the kwoon as much as I am definately helps me. I find I leave the outside world behind when I enter the door. I focus, work hard, learn, get corrected and relearn over and over with no stress or negativity. Then when I leave the kwoon and head home each nite the stress I left behind at the door is no longer as pressing as it was. I still have miles to go, but I finally feel like I'm moving forward again. I know I have been on a long plateau for some time. Now I feel like I'm moving uphill and that feels great because I'm making progress again. It sometimes feels like I'm trying to fill a tanker truck with a thimble when I look at all that there is to learn. But then a calm voice enters my head and says of course its gonna take time, enjoy it. That's what I can say has really clicked for me the most. No matter how hard the workout or form or technique I'm trying to learn, I'm thoroughly enjoying kung fu on a level I haven't before. As Sifu Brinker says ( and I truly get it finally), there are just things you can't do YET.
Mr. Hamilton
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