Was I a Snob?

OK, so I just posted a journal already today. The thing is, that was one I drafted a few days ago, and I am so excited about my kung fu today, that I just had to write another one.

I had a fantastic kung fu day today! I was at the school from 10:30 until just before 3:00. I find myself jumping ahead with my kung fu so much every day, that I wonder just how bad was I before, really? By that I mean, how much of a snob was I? I am actually a very shy person when not in my own surroundings, and sometimes even when I am. That alone sometimes comes off as being a snob. But I know that I have not been the most friendliest black belt in the school. Because of that, I have missed out on a lot, and I am discovering now, just how much.

At the black belt classes, I am now having conversations with people that I normally wouldn't of had before. It wasn't that I would not talk to others to be rude, but I was just in my own little world, with my own little thoughts and my own little attitude, and my own little comfort zone with people I was comfortable working with and conversing with. Now, I like to work with people outside of that comfort zone, and chat with those who I have never chatted with before. I am kind of surprised and know that I shouldn't be, but people accept me and are friendly with me.

I am finally feeling for the first time, that yes, I do have a kung fu family. We are all united with the direction we want our lives to go. I am getting to know more of the students and I feel like I am making more of a connection with the other black belts. I like that. I have always very highly respected Sifu Masterson, and looked up to her for guidance, even though she has never known that. I like getting to work with her more now through the I Ho Chuan. Sifu Rybak and Sifu Kichko are others that I have always sat back and watched and liked, but never really got to know, until now.

I still wonder every day, why there is such a change in me and my attitude. So what if I am doing the I Ho Chuan requirements. Why should that make such an impact in my life? How has all this opened my eyes to things that I was too blind to see before? I don't have those answers yet, but when it is such a good thing as this, why question it? Just go with it!!