Excitement and Frustration

I am super excited about doing my forms! I think that I have had a break through and I am excited to explore it more. I think that I have been on the verge of this discovery for a while now but I just needed to let it happen. I have had glimpses of awareness in my movements when I have been training really hard but it always seemed slightly out of reach and it seemed to have taken a lot of work and concentration to get to that moment. The other day I was working on Kempo 1 and suddenly I could feel exactly what I needed to change. On another day, I was doing Hung 1 & Hung 2 and could feel where the flow was and where it definitely was not. I have been pushing myself for this insight for a while and until now have only had a glimpse of it. I think now I can correct the parts of my forms that I have been trying to figure out. I just needed to let it happen. Now the work begins! I think that I am going to do all my forms really slow (like Tai Chi) but still try and maintain the same moves so that I can figure out how to change things. I have already started with Kempo and although there is tons of work to do,I am happy to have a direction.
Now for the frustrating part, my bronchitis is almost all gone and all that is left is the damage. I am still having a hard time breathing when I try to do anything cardio and I get tired easily. Last night, we did some drills and I pushed myself until I had no strength left (which felt really good!) but that left me so short of breath, I couldn't believe it. So I am left with the challenge of pushing myself a little but not so much that I halt the healing process. It seems like it has been a while since I had to take it easy while I heal and had forgotten how much I disliked it. (okay, it makes me kinda cranky!) The positive side is that I will improve my forms immensely as I do them slowly and focus on the details.
That is what is happening in my little world this week,

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