Drawing the Line

There seems to be a fine line!

I quite often say…..

There’s just not enough time in the day.

I lead my own journey,

that, I’m fully aware.

I try to fit in so much,

in the end realize,

that’s not too smart or very wise.

I don’t really think it’s an issue of prioritization,

because of my list of substantial size.

I am my own individual, who always tries his best.

I’m big on maintenance and staying on top of the list,

therefore find my mind, without any rest.

I'm doing this and doing that;

nothing stays the same, with constant change.

So I ask, is this the answer?

Keep on, you will see!

I am not number one and maybe I should be,

but the way I see it, is my family comes before me.

For this to take place,

the funds must roll in,

so into my truck I go, to call another Inn.

Even though my training still goes on,

It is different alone

and away from home.

I focus on the mental, and how I eat,

I do my push-ups and stay away from the treats.

I often think that it is not enough or all I can be……..

Hmmmm, so think…………..

Who is that I’m trying to be?

I’m not Superman!

I’m just a humbled soul, who is trying to be all he can.

So, why can’t I see this guy I feel I want to be?

Why the challenge of being me?

I’ve held this pencil high,

but have yet to see, the distinct location to draw the line,

where I think I should be.

Is it this call or challenge, of" change" for me?

The one I continually face, the one in front of me!

This could be it… It’s been this way so long, it has to be, my destiny!

Don’t forget the rest…and what I mean,

is a little R and R and mind relief is key.

I lay down my pencil,

and finally see,

that it’s the change, that's meant for me.

Darcy Regier, Silent River Kung Fu