Sunday, February 19, 2012

The single life

This coming week will see a change for me I haven't experienced is at least ten years. Randy (my husband) will be working out of the country, Florida to be precise. The plan is for at least three months,but it's a wait and see thing. The good side if there is one, I'll have more time to focus on my training. The bad thing is focusing. I know from past experience that my emotions take a spiral. I will be fighting depression for the first few weeks and you know how hard it is to stay in the moment when all you can think of is him. My youngest daughter will have to see the inside of the change rooms a lot more often and I will have to make some adjusting to suit her schedule. I never minded being by myself as a matter of fact I like my own company,but he is such a big part of who I am that I never stop missing him I know what your thinking "suck it up " and you'd be right and I will eventually. I wanted to say I love my tai chi sword. I thought it might be heavy but it's well balanced and that makes a big difference. So I know I have no balance and I know you want to tell me how it should be done just remember to have patience I truly am trying.
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  1. Sifu StoddartFebruary 19, 2012 at 9:40 AM

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  2. Sifu StoddartFebruary 19, 2012 at 9:51 AM

    I tried to edit my comment and ended up deleting it. oopsies.

    Of course there is a good side to all of this. You just have to stay positive and you will see it for yourself. I know, I know, I am one to talk. I may not always practice what I preach, but I am trying, and I know for assuredly there is great strength and truth in looking for the positive in all things. For one, Randy IS working, and is ABLE to work. Maybe this will give you an opportunity to focus on your training a bit more, as you said. I also don't think you should see yourself as single. You may be temporarily physically apart, but from what you say, emotionally, you are both very much still together.

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  3. Krysta February 19, 2012 at 5:36 PM

    I know how you feel Sifu, Seans been on nights for the last 2 weeks and no end in sight. Nights, as in start at 7pm (so leave the house by 6pm so I only see him for 20 mins, if at all if he has to pick stuff up and leaves early) and he gets in about 5 am--so again, hes half asleep and thats no real conversation. And he doesnt call. So I too, get depressed. My goals we've set are a real life saver sometimes, forcing me to DO something instead of just being depressed. And that usually makes me feel good, keeps me going. I know its not the same as 3 months, but we will be here for you too.

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