This has been an extremely trying week for me mentally. Work has started to affect me on levels that I'm not very comfortable with. Last week we had some layoffs on our site. Sadly my site is the only big project going at the moment for my company and we no longer require 220 electricians and data technicians to complete the job. So 25 men and ladies were laid off at the end of the day last thursday. One of those individuals must have felt that I had something to do with their layoff and decided to get even. My company has a whistle blower program that just came out in december. The disgruntled employee proceeded to send in a complaint about me that was rambling, vague and untrue. But because it was put in anonumously and had my full name I had to proceed to prove my innocence. I thought about how to respond to the accusations politely and without malice or getting my hackles up as they say. What got me down in the dumps was that even though there was no proof of wrongdoing and I was even told that the job I was doing was exemplary, my project supervisor wrote me up for the complaint to do his due diligence as he called it. I have never been in this situation and was both stunned and taken aback. I felt that my reputation and character had been thrown out the window and it has taken a few days to get over second guessing everything I do or say at work. I have always been proud to work for the company I do and to do the best job I can at all times. But I feel now like I have been betrayed in a way. I have come to realize that my project manager is only doing his job as he sees it, and in the that light I am not angy or bitter. I feel more let down then anything as I always believed that my company would back up a good worker to the best of their ability. Not so it would now appear. So now I need to reassess my future and where I want to be in the next few years in my career. All in all this may turn out much more positive then the small picture I am seeing in front of me at this time, time will tell.
On a very positive note I responded to Sifu Brinker's challenge and I have been getting up a little earlier each day and getting in at least 90 to 120 pushups each morning(sets of 30). My shoulder is doing well so far with no inflamation or tenderness so far, knock on wood(aka own head). I thought of a lot of excuses about why it would be hard to get up earlier and do this, but I finally realized I was just procastinating. Finishing off the rest in the evening is a breeze in either my own classes or when I'm helping with the kids classes. It only took a year but I finally got it. Situps I get in the evening as I normally due crunchs, plank or variations and get my numbers no problem.
One good step forward along the road the mastery. I'm sure there will be stumbles along the way, but with the teams help and inspiration I know I can right myself.
Mr. Hamilton
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