Not sure if I should write this post or not, but I am extremely frustrated. My left hip and knee rotate inward and are constantly in pain. I find my hip dislocating itself and going back in constantly and this is very painful, it mostly happens when throwing side heels or back kicks. My right arm is still not fully functional after injuring it a few years ago, it's much better but still has a long way to go. My cardio is really bad, after a small amount of running with that dragon last night, I thought I was going to black out. I started smoking when I was 14 and regret doing that, especially now. I used to take all sorts of medication to try to alleviate the pain but I got so tired of putting chemicals I couldn't even pronounce in my body that I just decided to deal with it. I need to see a chiropractor or physio and get orthotics made, etc, etc...but it all costs money, even with benefits. It sucks having to go through life and makes you super cranky to always be hurting. What sucks even more is when you do talk about it, it seems like you're just complaining or whining all the time. Realistically, if I told you every time I was in pain, I'd be complaining ALOT.
I'm also frustrated with the amount of kung fu I've thrown myself into. It's extremely aggravating and demotivating being the slow kid in class all the time. It's also starting to really bother me that with working full time and being in Stony 5-6 days a week and with Josh working full time and going to school part time, I see him only an evening a week. Also frustrated that alot of our team hasn't been able to show up to things, which makes me feel alot of pressure to fill in for things that I definately don't feel ready for. I'm also frustrated that I can't seem to remember to log anything. All I can say is GRRRRRRRR!
None of this should probably bother me so much but it does. I mean, no one is holding a gun to my head and making me do this...So why is it frustrating me so much?
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