I had one real crappy day today. I have been very upset and feeling quite down about some stuff. It has bothered me to the point that I have been unable to eat all day. I know this is definitely not a good thing, as I worked a 14 hour day today, and my work is very physical. All I wanted to do was crawl into a small dark hole and make the world disappear.
No time for holes. I had to go teach the kids kung fu class tonight and really, really didn't want to. I thought of so many ways to get out of it. I could just tell Sifu Brinker I wasn't in the right mind for teaching. I could just get Sifu Wonsiak to do the teaching while I helped out a bit. I thought of it all, but knew as a black belt, I needed to suck it up and leave my worries behind me at the door as I entered the kung fu school.
I ended up having a great class. I wasn't really sure what I was going to teach, but I had a small idea, that I was hoping would grow as I got out on the mats. It worked well. I had a lot of fun with the kids, and they worked hard, but didn't really realize they were working hard. They were so focused and enjoying what they were doing, yet they were learning very important kung fu skills.
As class ended and students started to leave, I all of a sudden noticed that I had totally forgotten about my worries for the last 2 hours. I had not thought of it even once. Yet, I was able to get out there and focus on the kids and give them a class they deserved. I feel quite a bit better now. My world isn't totally sunny skies, but I can cope, and I can hope for a brighter tomorrow.
I have a similar experience each time that I step on the matts. I call our kwoon my magic place, as all my troubles float away like magic when I am there. :)
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