These are the journals of Silent River Kung Fu I Ho Chuan team members as part of Tom Callos' Ultimate Black Belt Test.
Sunday, April 8, 2012
lessos
I too, have had an interesting time with what I'm learning this week. I'm taking the same course as Ms Donahue and it had some eye openers for me also. I've been struggling with practicing for the last month with time, but also with enthusiasm, and I couldnt seem to shake it. I've been questioning whether I want my black belt, why I took on so many things, etc,etc, and couldnt seem to break free and just do them. I have realized that a huge reason I'm resisting is I'm afraid. Afraid to try and fail. Afraid even that I could be good enough, that I could be a black belt, so I'm making my fears happen by avoiding training. Avoiding asking for help. One of the things I needed to do after I figured that out (and was willing to admit it) was map out what I needed for success. I know I need lots of encouragement, lots of dragging me out to do techniques or whatever, lots of feedback. I'll be trying to come out of my shell and just be more involved; and I know it will take baby steps. The positive side is I do have a team I can ask. Too bad we cant always say that in all areas of our lives, but we can in this. Thanks in advance team. I will be bugging you--and if I dont, keep me accountable by bugging me:)
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I thought I was the only one feeling this way. I have had to change my approach with taking one day at a time and doing my best. However things turn out, I will have learned something and be further ahead than I was. I'll drag and encourage you and you can me!
ReplyDeleteThese challeges that we put ourselves through are what define who we are. The way I see it is, if I don't try will I ever know? How will I ever know or learn who I'am or who I could be? Give credit where it is due Sihing! If I can ever help, just ask.
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