Gameplan

My posts seem to be really negative.  Not intentional, just kung fu seems to be a mixture of all the things I'm the worst at, so I have to work on it harder than anything else.  I grew up quitting when things got difficult.  I used to be an amazing little artist.  I actually have friends from elementary and junior high finding me on Facebook, asking me if I ever went anywhere with it.  My answer is no.  The reason sadly is because when I tried drawing peoples faces, I couldn't do it perfectly right away so I gave it up entirely.  I did the same with piano and guitar.  I picked it up quite quickly but wasn't as good as the guy beside me so instead of learning from him, I quit.  I wish I could tell younger Lindsay how talented she was and stupid she was to give up.
I don't want to do the same thing with kung fu.  It's definitely not something that comes easy to me, but I do recognize the fact that I am progressing.  The weapons training, will by far be my favorite part despite how much I argue with my weapon.  Being in front of people is my least favorite, along with combinations.  I have some things I have to do in order to keep going with my training.  First, get the hip, knee and other appendages looked after and fixed, I can't keep going with the pains I'm having. Second, get on a proper diet so I stop shaking so much and get the nutrients I need.  Third, work on my flexibility, I will be looking into hot yoga.  Fourth, slowly get used to doing my kung fu in front of people.  I will start this by showing my family my ropedart form, as well as practicing before and after classes with people around.  Once I get all this looked after, I will start San Shao because I'm also horrible at sparring.  My intention was to join that class sooner, but I have to prioritize and there's only 24 hours in a day.  I think if I keep looking after one thing at a time, I won't get so overwhelmed.
I will stick to my Mon and Wed classes and Practices Fridays and Saturdays with the Shaolin Fitness.  I need the other days to accomplish the other stuff on my list.
I Ho Chaun has definitely helped me focus on becoming a more mindful person.  I am actively conscious about the decisions I make, how I treat others and the impact my words can have on people.  I was surprised when another student thanked me for how I treated her when she first started.  She said that she appreciated how helpful I was and she was so nervous it was nice for her to have a friendly face to approach.  That's the kind of Sifu I want to be one day.  The one that motivates the people that are afraid to step into the kwoon, to keep coming back, because  I completely understand that feeling.