That was the theme for me this year. I had my year planned, sights set, head down, and go for it. Then a loud crack in my ear, the room spinning, and a shoulder that couldn't move let me know that plans had changed from what I thought to what I needed to do. From that day on it has been rest, healing, rehab, and now rebuild and I'm not only talking about my shoulder, but the rest of me as well.
This year has similar reflection to 2008, the year my brother died and my whole world was turned upside down with the feeling of being totally alone. That year signified a lot of change and it continued on with this last year getting deeper to the core uprooting a lot of emotion and grief leaving me both to question and discover who I really am and what do I really want. Who am I? What's my name? Where's my lunchbox? And a thousand more questions some with answers and the answers are coming from within. I've tapped into what I'm truly gifted at and what I really love to do and am stepping out into the world knees shaking and teeth rattling.
Even though my numbers are not stellar, my growth has been exponential. Those who know me beyond the kwoon know what I'm talking about. The exciting part for me is that this is just the beginning of what lies ahead and what lies ahead is my life designed by me. I've heard the saying that 60 is the new 40 so now that I've turned 30, it feels pretty darned good.
When I think back to the upside down moment when I heard the crack, the thought in that freeze frame moment was "yeah, this is not an accident." In that moment, I knew that the injury needed to happen to get me to stop not only physically, but mentally and emotionally to truly heal so that I could go forward in a direction that is beyond what I could have planned for myself.
Sherri Donohue
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