Where to start? Well
the past four weeks have been the most intense and stressful weeks that I can
ever remember. Not only am I away from
home in South Carolina, the
training is something that is incredibly intense. Recently I finished up the first phase of my
training and maintained one of the highest overall averages in the class. I am proud of that but it came at a price.
When I was home last, I was able to stop into the kwoon and
made it to the I Ho Chuan meeting. That
was an amazing meeting and I was so happy to share my journey and to “re charge”
after being away. However, when I
returned to SC my training there increased in intensity by almost 100%. I wasn’t expecting this and I shed everything
that would interfere with my Michelin training.
As a result I stopped my kung fu training. I stopped doing and recording my sit ups and
push ups. I stopped doing my forms, I
stopped everything including blogging.
Blogging is the MOST important aspect of the I Ho Chuan in my mind and I
stopped writing. I have no excuses and
actually I am ashamed and angry with my failure. I had every good intention of keeping up and
at the minimum maintain where I was. I
FAILED, I failed to even do the very basic of basics. I am feeling very lonely and out of touch
with my Kwoon and training mates. I have
lost that connection that to me is so important and seeing the team train and
prepare for the lion/dragon dance really got me down. Before I left I was part of the team, I was
part of the demo’s and I felt like a contributing part of the team and now I
feel quite the opposite.
I am sooooo very proud of the team and all that they have
done to get ready and perform today. I
have decided that I am going to start writing again and to get back to my Kung
Fu training. It is going to be a long
road back to where I was before I left but I am going to start today. I am going to start small and build upon
every day.
If I go silent, please give me a nudge!
Ian Repay
Student Of Silent River
Kung Fu
ianrepay@blogspot.com
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