My Year So Far...

Well at first this I Ho Chaun thing really stressed me out. I was feeling discouraged and frustrated which ended up making me feel incredibly unmotivated. After awhile I started looking at it differently as the things I started getting out of this ended up different than what I expected. Alot of the things that have changed for me. I am more conscious of what I eat. Anything microwavable or fast was my answer to everything, now I pay more attention to what I eat. I still eat the things I crave, I've just come to terms that chocolate is a snack and not a food group. I'm way more aware of how I treat people. Do I still get frustrated with the human race? Absolutely!!! I try to control my temper much better now though, use my manners more and appreciate it so much more when people do kind things for me. I'm still a work in progress as things still make my blood boil but I don't think I'm as bad as I used to be. I'm also slowly working on my fear and anxiety when it comes to doing things in front of people. I haven't yet been brave enough to do a form or anything in front of the group but I've been pushing myself slowly and surely. Last year would I have done a warm up? Nope! Would I have done Bootcamp? Bigger Nope! Forms seminar? Heck No! So regardless whether I do a demo or not this year, there has still been progress. I'm also not afraid to ask questions in class anymore and am much more patient with myself. I find although my body still doesn't cooperate with me as much as I'd like it too, I'm picking things up faster because I'm learning to calm myself down. Before, I'd just get aggravated and give up. So, am I doing everything on the list? No, but I'm setting myself up to be able to do it all by the time I'm ready to grade. By starting as an orange belt, I have longer to learn to discipline myself and am learning alot from the rest of the team about what I have to do to be successful. I may be the last one in the line up but I have nowhere to go but forward.