Things That Are Scary

I didn't sign up for Tiger Challenge this year. Yes, I understand it would be good for me and logically I know I should do it, but the irrational fearful side of me is much louder than the rational side this time. The things I fear are; Public performances/speaking, centipedes/worms, clowns, heights and deep water...pretty much in that order. Yes, I've been pushing myself over and over out of that comfort zone. I've done warm-ups, the forms seminar, talked a lot more in front of the class, I walked the suspension bridge in Drumheller and went in the deep end at the wave pool in west ed. These don't seem like a big deal to the average person I'm sure, but I'm not sure that I'm all that normal. I'm the kind of person that has to gain courage on my own when it comes to things I'm afraid of, a little encouragement helps, but if I'm pushed, the claws come out and there's no way you will ever get me to do it. ever. period. It's kind of like Sihing Krebs blog about when he touched the tarantula. Do you think that he'd get over his fear if you threw him in a big pit of them, no, you'd give him nightmares and anxiety for weeks. You have to start off by touching one, then maybe you could hold one, then maybe let one crawl on you...baby steps. So, maybe I'm not advancing as fast as some people may think I should because I haven't done my form in front of the class yet, but I'm working up to it. Mrs. Csillag asked me..."What would work to help you?" I thought that was a great question to ask and I don't know the answer yet, but I'm thinking about it. I'm coming to volunteer for Tiger Challenge this year so I know what to expect and the goal is to participate next year. I'm not sure if this Blog makes sense, forgive me I'm still a little sick and it's early. :)