I have spent the last 6 months in total fear of doing something. So afraid that I would start physically shaking (complete with teeth chattering) every time I thought about doing it. I very worked hard stretching out the task in an effort to avoid it. Not done yet. Needs more work. Redo this part. Not ready. The work was painful and time-consuming and difficult and hard on my self-confidence. However. It is now done. And it was really not as hard as I thought it would be. Done.
And now I am left looking at the energy and work I put into avoiding this task and feeling like I really should have given myself more credit along the way.
I need to work on my self-confidence because I am really awesome. ;-)
Procrastination is also present in my weekly blogs. Blogging is a huge task for me that I constantly struggle with. Yup, not sure if you noticed but I procrastinated so much last week that this week is actually last weeks blog. I still feel very exposed and uncomfortable with this sharing thing. And it freaks me out that my words are out there for everyone to read. To judge. Obviously, my lack of confidence is evident here. Not feeling so awesome at the blogging. I kept thinking that it would get better, easier, but I am still struggling with it after doing it for a whole year. And it hasn't gotten any easier.
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