hello everyone i am having a feeling right now that i haven't felt
since my first year in I Ho Chuan. I feel sick, i am not actually sick,
but in my own mind i become my own worse enemy. with the banquet coming
up my social phobia is kicking into overdrive. I know i can't succumb
back to who i used to be. i did not like who that person was, that
person was always scared and super shy. i am no longer like that. i know
i still have some way to go, but i can't be like that anymore. it's not
me anymore. i now actively try and create conversations, i now try to
be more open, and now i try to actually make myself a better person. and
i have all of you to thank for that you all inspired me to try and make
myself a better person, you have all have made me so happy, without I
Ho Chuan or kung fu, i would be no where right now. Also i would like to
say one of my personal requirements i have for myself next year. i say
this one before this year end because i owe all my courage to you guy,
and i thought just in case some might not be returning i thought i say
it now. i have always been to shy and too hesitant to ever actually ask
out a girl and henceforth i have never had a girlfriend. but this year
my personal requirement, my personal goal is to get myself my first
girlfriend. I always feel a lot more calmer after i write a blog,
reveling my stress to the world. remember everyone stay extraordinary.
229lbs
Sihing Langner
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