Sunday, January 5, 2014

sick, vent, calm, happy

hello everyone i am having a feeling right now that i haven't felt since my first year in I Ho Chuan. I feel sick, i am not actually sick, but in my own mind i become my own worse enemy. with the banquet coming up my social phobia is kicking into overdrive. I know i can't succumb back to who i used to be. i did not like who that person was, that person was always scared and super shy. i am no longer like that. i know i still have some way to go, but i can't be like that anymore. it's not me anymore. i now actively try and create conversations, i now try to be more open, and now i try to actually make myself a better person. and i have all of you to thank for that you all inspired me to try and make myself a better person, you have all have made me so happy, without I Ho Chuan or kung fu, i would be no where right now. Also i would like to say one of my personal requirements i have for myself next year. i say this one before this year end because i owe all my courage to you guy, and i thought just in case some might not be returning i thought i say it now. i have always been to shy and too hesitant to ever actually ask out a girl and henceforth i have never had a girlfriend. but this year my personal requirement, my personal goal is to get myself my first girlfriend. I always feel a lot more calmer after i write a blog, reveling my stress to the world. remember everyone stay extraordinary.  



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Sihing Langner

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