This morning I awoke from a restless sleep. I remember still being awake at 1:30 even though I laid down at 9:00 and had an alarm set for 5:00. Within the short amount of time that I was actually unconscious I had a very vivid dream. I was running towards a finish line, my legs in agony while everyone passed me with smiles on their faces. I felt like I couldn't take another step, so I turned around and started running backwards, the only thing propelling me was my falling center. When my alarm brought me back to consciousness I felt pain running through my entire body, it felt like I had just ran the race that my mind had created. It took me four hours before I could muster the energy to leave my bed.
For the past three weeks I have found myself in the deepest rut I have ever experienced. My body is in the best shape it has ever been in but it feels like my head has been missing. My doctor has pinpointed the cause of all this, a group of muscles in my neck, but the medication and stretches I have been told to do have little affect on my situation. When I walk my steps seem to fall instead of being placed, my path sways in front of me when I try to keep it straight. Each night I hope that I'll be better in the morning, that I can return to my normal self and go back to work, but each morning I find myself in the same spot. The constant sense of failure has started to push me into a depression, something that I thought could never happen to me.
Totals:
Pushups - 4050
Situps - 4050
Jian Form - 30
Kempo - 10
Acts of Kindness - 1
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